In my not so distant past, I was quick to fall into romantic feelings with the opposite sex. Whether it was just from a common understanding or experience, a shared personality trait, physical desire, or sheer loneliness – I jumped the gun on opening up my heart extremely prematurely, which often times left great damage to myself and/or the other party involved.
As of late the Lord has really been healing and helping me with this character flaw, but I first had to admit that I had a problem/wasn’t the best at guarding my heart.
As a recovering “know it all” (still a work in progress), it was somewhat difficult to admit that although professionally I had it mostly together, romantically I was a hot mess. Once I did, the healing began.
Although some day I desire the bomb connection of a mate, of course on the same spiritual, Jesus loving flow as I, that day is not today, and that’s ok.
In this time of healing and help, I am becoming able to not only articulate and communicate what I desire in a mate, but also what I desire in and from myself – the type of woman that I am currently, as well as the type I hope to become, to not only be the best version of myself for me, but also for a future spouse, family, etc.
This life of mine is personalized by the Master, and I am digging each step of the way – struggles, excitements, victories, downtimes, items yet to be revealed, and all!
Romance, as great and wonderful as it can, and what I believe I’ll witness it to be, I still say to myself, what’s the rush?…
I am enjoying and taking in all that the here and now has to offer… I’m thankful for strength and courage with, and through this.
Staying encouraged – Praying the same for you!