Know that you’re the “S” (stuff).

Rejection that can follow when a (potential) relationship doesn’t turn out as you’d hoped sucks, but do you know what sucks even more? When we allow the result of said “potential” relationship to cause us to forget who the heck we are, and what we are worth!

I get angry with myself when I allow rejection or an unsuccessful (potential) relationship to cause me to question my personality, my unwavering relationship standards, or my choice to just pass on it (the person or potential relationship).

I think being without a relationship for a bit can cause one to question whether they are being unrealistic or demanding, so after the initial shock and pain of letting someone go, I would strongly suggest taking a beat, and snapping out of the emotions that may ensue. If you have set deal breakers prior to getting involved with someone, they more than likely are you being real with yourself and honestly identifying what you can and cannot (or will and will not) tolerate.

Although it can get lonely out here as a single person, (😊) knowing that you’re the “S” allows the ability to shake embarrassing and hurtful situations off, and keep it moving, gracefully, without animosity, anger, guilt or shame toward yourself or others.

Let’s stop returning to vomit* (the people/relationships you know are no good for you, whether the party intentionally hurts you or not) and embrace the unknown. Know that you are the “S”, and that God’s got you…

Staying encouraged, and TRULY hoping the same for you!

*“As a dog returns to its vomit, so a fool repeats his foolishness.”

~Proverbs 26:11 New Living Translation

He won’t leave you alone.

Sometimes the people in my life are just busy with life, having other things going on, and unable to always be present and check in. As a side note, from personal experience I would encourage one to not to take these times of “absence” personally, as there may come a time where you find yourself on the other side of things (unintentionally being absent) and want some grace and understanding.

Anyway 🙂 , at times I feel I need, or more so want another human around, if for nothing more than to hopefully feel like someone “gets” me at a time where perhaps I feel misunderstood or honestly, just lonely (again, at that specific time). During these times when there appears to be no one around, checking for me, I am thankful that I can always count on the Lord to be near, by my side, wanting to be invited into the “mix” of my life.

I am getting better at realizing that whether I have anyone around socially, romantically, etc., or if I appear to be all alone (I state appear, because as a Believer I know that I am never alone), I am thankful that I always have a friend in Jesus.

I dig that there are never any misunderstandings or ill-intent on His part. I can always be honest and myself, which is sometimes not so loveable, or pushy, silly, hard, even vulnerable – The Lord sees it all, and He sticks around, because He wants to. *When He said He’d never leave me nor forsake me, He meant it! He’s faithful through and through. Again, I am thankful to be witnessing this for myself.

He (the Lord) won’t leave you alone – That’s a real nice thing…

Staying encouraged – I am sincerely hoping the same for you…

*Deuteronomy 31:6c NKJV

Heart vs mind (head) and trusting the Lord.

Heart vs mind is a tricky balancing act for me. In my younger years, I was for sure more of a heart over mind type of gal. Strong emotions, passion, and feelings guided many of the actions I took, especially when it came to personal relationships. I strongly believed that since I was an awesome person (my personal opinion here – You better know you are awesome for yourself – just saying 😊), everyone I met would just adore me, treat me well, and have my best interest in mind. Various life experiences and lessons shifted this way of thinking, more towards the all-mind (using your head/logic only) end of the spectrum.

For me, the all-mind (head) thinking ran the risk of me becoming jaded, bitter, hard, and closed off from the world and others. In my specific case, it wasn’t that I was hard, angry and unfriendly, quite the opposite, as I love being friendly. It’s something everyone has an equal ability to do, just at different levels and expressive routes. My thing was more of I just didn’t choose to let anyone in – shallow relationships were just fine – you know, the casual greetings, sincere well wishes, but getting to know me – know me, was out of the question. I didn’t want to get hurt or disappoint myself by being so carefree and unguarded, that I unintentionally let the wrong person/people in.

The question then became, “how do you balance using both heart and mind (when it comes to relationships)?”. One word rings out loud and clear to me here, and that is WISDOM!

I pray that I continue to invite the Lord into the mix, and utilize His kind of wisdom as I am granted opportunities to try again at being willing to open up and get to know people, as well as allowing them to know me.

Y’ all pray for me as I step back out in faith on this.

Staying encouraged, hoping the same for you!

*Feel free to refer to “Don’t start none, won’t be none” for a share on using wisdom when contemplating starting something up.

Don’t start none, won’t be none.

I am thankful for the lessons learned from many of my life experiences, thus far – believing the Lord for even more, as I continue to press on 🙂

Due to being in the midst of summer nights, one lesson that comes to mind is that from times I became entangled with “like” interests, at an inopportune time (out of season).

Occasionally I miss the entertainment of a “like” interest – the giggles, smiles, and cool conversations. Unfortunately, what I found, at least during “focused seasons” which I strongly believe I am in now, is the situation with a “like” interest becomes too overwhelming. After a bit, I would get fully engulfed in attraction and time-consuming behavior that ended up pulling me away from the things that truly should have been a priority at the time. Plainly put, I became distracted.

The “harmless” smiles and giggles eventually turned into frustration and annoyance – Not necessarily because of the other person, but more so because a relationship got started before its time. In some instances, nothing should have gotten started in the first place, but that’s a whole other post!

All in all, I now see, pertaining to out of season romantic relationships and all that come with them, if I don’t start none, won’t be none. So again, lesson learned…

Staying focused and encouraged, sincerely hoping the same for you all!

Embrace the time of calm.

Sometimes I get into a “go-go-go!” type of mode – I feel like I always must have something going on. If not personally/socially, then professionally (at work).

I totally get the mindset of wanting to be productive and utilize your time here on earth, but always being on “go” not only isn’t the best for your health (even our electronic devices need a reset/recharge), but this mindset can also make it nearly impossible to positively embrace the seasons of calm that enter our lives.

Typically for me, right after a prolonged stretch of a busy season (mainly at work), I find the need to have to fight back the feeling of anxiety when a time of calm hits. My body seems to desperately search for a task I must’ve forgotten, or I pick back up a worry/concern that I’ve already laid at the feet of the Lord, again to feed the need to have something to “work” on / be consumed by.

This time around I choose to do things differently! During this time of calm, I am making the conscience decision to chill the heck out! I have already begun to experience a little taste of how enjoyable the here and now can be when I am present, and not overburdened with workload, unnecessary tasks and events, or even thoughts.

For as long as I am living, there will again come a period when busyness will be required, so for right now, I am taking on and embracing the time of calm!

Staying encouraged – Sincerely praying the same for you 🙂

**I do want to mention that as Believers, we have the privilege of always having some type of peace/calm at our fingertips, so we can embrace the time of calm in every season we face (Philippians 4:6-7)!

Check your Check-in Motives.

From personal experience I just want to say, if you do not mean someone from your past well, and just want to check in on them and see how they’re “surviving” without you, do that person a favor and don’t (check in).

I have never quite understood the reason why past love/like interests feel the need to check back in, knowing full well they don’t mean you any good, but just want to “see what you are up to”. In my opinion that is selfish and highly inconsiderate.

If you are reaching out, not to try to make things right, but only to get your unanswered questions or unresolved issues within yourself settled, I strongly encourage you to think before you reach out. Your selfish motives run the risk of undoing a lot of healing and growth that has taken place.

If someone has begun the getting over you journey, let them keep trucking down that path, in peace!

Just a word to the wise.

With all of that said, I am still sincerely hoping you (the reader) are staying encouraged 🙂

A season of lessons to be learned.

Obviously it has been a bit since I last shared via Carpe. Definitely not because nothing is going on with me, quite the opposite actually. The experiences are not all peaches and roses, but definitely making it through, by the grace of God.

Anyway… I am one who believes in embracing the various seasons of life. I believe that I am currently in a lessons to be learned season. In this season there is more living going on, that has, and will continue to birth lessons and experiences to hopefully draw from and share in the near future.

Nonetheless, I wanted to drop some lines to sincerely state I hope all who view this blog are staying encouraged and pressing on, in whatever life season you currently find yourself in.

More to come… 🙂

Never Beg.

No one has, or ever will fully master life. We are all here trying to make it through, as best as possible, for Believers (myself included), relying on the help of the Lord.

Because of this fact, and merely being human, we are bound to make mistakes and hurt others. Unfortunately, sometimes the “others” are those we greatly care for. In these instances, we may get the urge to beg for forgiveness. Although I am a firm believer in apologizing and doing all that you can to get things right with others, I think it harmful to your health and esteem, to beg and beg for others to try and see things your way (your well intentions), accept your apology, and let you back in their life (rebuild the relationship).

If you have done all that you can, i.e., apologized sincerely, made necessary mindset and actionable changes to back up your apology, you may just need to let go, and let God. Let God heal you, and let God heal the other person/parties involved.

It is not healthy to continually wallow in regret and belittle yourself, in the process of trying to convince someone to believe that you genuinely are for them. No matter how sincere you are, some things can only be revealed by the Lord Himself.

If you find yourself on the begging for forgiveness / another chance boat, get things right, as much as is possible with you, and then get off that thing! Your actions and true intentions are sure to eventually shine through – Hand the issue/relationship/whatever, over to God and trust that He can and will work things together for your good.

Again, ask for forgiveness, get it right (as much as possible), and hand it over to Jesus.

To you, and to myself I say, never beg.

Holding on – I pray the same for you!

Worth the investment.

Something really cool happened to me recently – I pampered myself. Not because I was stressed or depressed and needed a pick me up, but because it clicked (in a major way) that I am worth investing in myself, as I am, and where I am now.

During this pampering I took the time to remove ALL the previous nail polish from my hands and feet. I then glossed them up and put on something I had stashed away for just the right occasion. I decided that that night was just the right occasion I needed!

How I was looking and feeling, you would’ve thought I was prepping for a fierce girl’s night out, but I wasn’t. It was just for me… I felt empowered and honored to be treating myself to such much needed TLC (tender love and care) without apparent cause.

Even in the midst of this global pandemic (COVID-19), we are still being allotted precious, valuable time and days on the Earth. Personally, I am working on not waiting around for some “big” event to be scheduled, or a love interest or flirty dating activity to come along before I present my best physical self. I feel when you just present your best self in order to impress, all that fanciness will go out the door when it’s just you, and I am sorry, but we are worth 24/7 fanciness…

*Please note, fanciness can and does mean different things to different people.

All in all, I am just encouraged to maintain a standard that is important for me to keep, regardless of what’s going on, or who is or is not around.

I am worth the investment – I believe you are too!

Staying encouraged, believing, and hoping the same for you!

Something good.

I am learning to check myself when insecurity tries to seep in, and I begin to think that I have to do the establishing and sustaining where the Lord places me, whether professionally, socially, etc.

As Believers, God does our establishing, and where He leads, He feeds (supplies the necessary tools, skills etc. needed for us to not only survive (make it), but thrive)!

When I feel like I have to personally fight or make something happen within my own power/might, I begin to second guess my abilities, giftings, and/or just the overall flare that God has specially granted me.

I am finding as I continue to walk out and trust what the Word states – God will establish me, He will fight my battles, it is He who grants me success, I take a step back, breathe, and repent for relying on my own ability vs God’s. I then just shake it off, and boldly get back in there and by faith, continue to walk out the ordered steps before me.

As Believers we don’t have to try and make things happen on our own, or be shaken by how things appear. We can confidently trust that God is with us, and what He has prepared for us is something good…

Staying encouraged, I pray the same for you!

Scripture References (just a few): Deuteronomy 28:9, II Thessalonians 2:16-17, Exodus 14:14, Deuteronomy 3:22, Joshua 1:8