Tag: self-worth

Sometimes I take a moment to look back over my life thinking about old experiences – reviewing old journal entries and/or posts, and smile as I identify eras of my life where I just seemed to have it together. I stood strong in my values and beliefs, I had consistent outside enjoyable interests, as well as external relationships I sowed into, built and maintained. To me, these were eras of victory, eras of flourishing.

An era of victory definitely was NOT what I’ve been feeling over the past few weeks. I actually found myself in a bit of a funk – feeling defeated, feeling lonely, feeling less than enough due to feeling so far from some of the goals and desires I currently have or imagined I’d attain by this point in my life. These feelings were dragging me down. My thoughts were, I want to be healthier, I want a life outside of work, I want to be better off financially, and honestly, I just want to like myself again.  

I was in a rut that was not only affecting myself, my thinking, my energy, my mental capabilities (being more negative vs positive), but I also identified that I was bickering more frequently with those I love. I found that I was highly critical of them and myself, and I just lacked bounce back. When a fiery dart from the enemy was thrown at me by way of a personal or professional hiccup or misunderstanding, I totally left my shield of faith by my side vs igniting that tool to combat those snares.

In seeking a way to snap out of it, I recognized some things that were missing from my life that I could do to assist with escaping the “rut”. I could partake in estimable acts – things that I enjoy that make me feel good about me such as walking, journaling, or signing up and ATTENDING a course of interest. I also identified that during this time there was a deficit in how I was treating myself – no regular sleep or eating pattern, lacking water and physical activity, just not being good to me.

I’ve heard often that when you look good you feel good. It’s easy to think that the “looking good” refers to our outside (physical traits) but for me, looking good entails looking good from the inside out. I strongly believe both have a positive effect on feeling good.

As these things have been revealed to me through seeking guidance from the Lord and taking an honest look at myself, cause and effect has been revealed, now is the time for action, taking the necessary steps to feel good about me. So, here we go…

Staying encouraged, I pray the same for you!